So, I've been waiting for the arrival of the new little one. I had an appointment yesterday and was given the option of being induced this morning. I gotta tell you that it was tempting. But after some time of deliberation & prayer, I was confident in my decision to turn it down. I felt like God was challenging me. How much control do I want/need? How much do I trust Him and His perfect timing. During my decision/prayer time yesterday, I happened to open my Bible up to Psalm 139. It really was perfect. Through this scripture He reminded me that He knows every move, thought, word of mine before I have the chance to make, think or say it. "You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word on my tongue, But behold, O LORD, You know it altogether." He reminded me that He created things a certain way and that their is no reason not to trust His systems. "For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works" He reminded me that He created my little girl & knows the number of her days...when they will begin & when they will end. "And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them." And He reminded me that He sees my anxieties & knows my fears and that I have no reason not to give them up to Him & trust His timing no matter what. So..while I am getting rather impatient at times and knowing that if I had allowed medical intervention I could have my baby with me right now...I am confident that I made the right choice and that my baby will be in my arms in God's perfect timing. My job is just to wait. "There's a time to work; a time to rest and believe that He knows best. It will happen, all in God's time!"
BTW: The above quote is from a little known song that has always been the one that dwells in my heart & mind in times like this. It is called "All in God's Time" and is sung by a guy named Danny Byram. I bought his tape at a sidewalk sale for really cheap when I was a kid. (I wonder whatever happened to him.)