I am not a social person. I like people but I prefer my contact with them to be from a distance or on my own terms. I am private. I like my own space. I like being on my own time. When I am in a social situation, I do not feel free to be who I am and I like being free. I am so guarded when it comes to my emotions that it makes being around people for too long, quite stressful. I prefer having a few close friends, a few casual once-in-a-while friends, and letting everyone else remain in the acquaintance/stranger category.
My question is this--am I wrong? Is this something that I should feel is a flaw in myself and work to change or is this a part of my make-up that I am fighting against every time a "social" person thinks there is something wrong with me for not wanting to spend time with them on Friday night and I end up feeling bad about myself? I want them to just understand that it is nothing personal against them...I'm like this with anybody. I'm content to stay at home with my family and not have many friends. Is this just me being selfish or is okay for me to be content with this aspect of myself?
And when I ask this question, I feel that the only Person really qualified to answer is God so, "Heavenly Father, please help me find the answer."